a lovely view of heaven

it's hard to believe that in 2 months I will be a Mom...i can't wait to meet my little girl..

Standing on the moon

With nothing else to do

A lovely view of heaven

But I'd rather be with you

oh my dear

((lost & found))

Lovers think they are looking for each other,

but there is only one search.

Wandering this world is wandering that,

both inside one transparent sky.

In here there is no dogma and no heresy.

The miracle of Jesus is himself,

not what he said or did about the future.

Forget the future. I would worship someone

who could do that.

On the way you may want to look back, or not,

but if you can say, "There is nothing ahead,"

there will be nothing there.

Stretch your arms and take hold

the cloth of your clothes with both hands.

The cure for pain is in the pain.

Good and bad are mixed. If you don't have both,

you do not belong with us.

When someone gets lost, is not here,

he must be inside us. There is no place like that

anywhere in the world.

~ Rumi

le début

i decided to start blogging because i just don't see the point in publicly posting my almost daily ramblings..this way, if you're reading this, you're interested and not just a victim of facebook newsfeed TMI.

when i was signing up it kept saying that the web address containing 'brittanymignon' was taken and well---being that i am the only brittany mignon that i have ever come across, i realized that i had already made a blog more than a year ago. there's a post from 2010 that i have vague memories of even writing..it's pretty interesting to see where my head was at that particular time. i still get it. and i remember those feelings well.... what a contrast i have between today and that day. and THAT to me is the real beauty of life..the bad days make the good days that much better :) life has been on an upswing but i know it wont remain that way every second of every day. in the meantime.... enjoy my headspace :)

x0x Britt

blue period picasso

today my heart is filled with so much confusion and pain that it hits me all at once at any given moment and i have to remember to breath. literally exhale. i haven't ever felt this way. i've felt heartbreak and devastation, ive had my world practically fall apart in my past relationship...i was so much younger then, and in such a different place in my life that i didn't know how to act. today i know right from wrong, and im remembering the mistakes that i made when i dealt with past heartbreaks. im feeling the emotions this time and its torturing. i repress my real emotions, i speak how i want to feel when the reality is that i am dying inside. i cant cry but my whole soul aches right now and the only way i know how to get through it is through music. sometimes i dont know whether i am processing emotions or wallowing in them. i wish there was a mathematical equation that could calculate when the heart heals. i just wish i could cry....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XWxfHiDuHbk